I'm Lame At Blogging Lately
I spend all my time focusing on Rory that blogging has become something I do sometimes. Honestly, I don't have much to write about outside of life adoring her and thanking God for blessing me with such a wonderful baby girl. I adore her and am so grateful for being able to be home with her for her first couple months of life. These have been the best days and I'm sad knowing they're already coming to an end. :( I'm going to miss being home with her and watching her grow by the minute. But work is a must and doing it will allow me to take care of her without worrying about her going without or being in need of something. Knowing that is the only comfort I get from knowing I'm going to be away from her so much starting in a few weeks.
This is why I can't focus on anything else.... or maybe its more that I don't want to. :)
She's perfect. I'm unbelievably lucky!
As scary as it is I love being a mom. Rory is my personal angel.
See, told you I don't have much to say outside of talking about her. :) I am just so amazed by her that I can't get over it. I've been an Aunt my whole life and a God-Mother for almost 9 years but being a mom is different. I love my nieces, adore them actually, and I adore my God-children but having Rory has made me love even more. I think its knowing that she's my responsibility, not someone else's. At the end of the day no one is going to pick her up and take her home or be in charge of buying her diapers and formula. I do that. I wake up with her at night, I change her diaper and give her baths, I wash her clothes and worry about teaching her right from wrong and how to count and her ABC's. I worry about when she starts school and starts to be independent. I think about how much I need to save for her college and how old she'll be when she decides she just HAS to move out on her own. I worry more than I have EVER before in my life. These are the scariest but BEST days of my life.
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