I'm so thankful for this picture. I'm thankful I got to see him one last time before he moved on to a better place. I'm grateful that I was able to talk to him, laugh with him, hug him and tell him I love him one last time before he left this world for the next.
I still can't believe he's gone. I took for granted his ability to always pull through before and was certain he was going to again. But he didn't. Not this time. He passed away yesterday with his loving wife at his side.
Things will never be the same without him but I know he's never far away, I just can't see him now. I hope he knows how loved he is and how missed he is. I hope he knows he'll always be in our hearts and we'll carry with us forever the wonderful memories he provided us with over the years.
I love you Uncle Keith and miss you dearly. Say hi to the family for me and know we love you.
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I don't know if I'm gonna make it through today.
This migraine is awful. I took a pain pill when my vision started to go out, like I usually do, and it's not doing anything to help. I don't even feel like it's taken the slightest bit of an edge off to the pain.
I'd cry if I wasn't at work.
I hate feeling like this. It's not only miserable but it's depressing. And it makes it impossible to concentrate on anything other than wanting to curl up in to a ball and never move.
Now it makes sense why I was feeling to horrible last night. I thought I was just overly tired but it was my body warning me of what was coming. I need to pay more attention. You'd think after almost 8 years of this I'd know the signs by now.
At least it's not busy over here today. *knock on wood*
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I have a boyfriend. It's weird to say. It feels like forever since I had a boyfriend. Well, it kinda has been actually.
He's very sweet. I feel comfortable around him and he makes me laugh. A lot. He laughs at the crazy stories I tell him about completely insane conversations Misa and I have. He talks to me, not at me, and he listens to me. He's always telling me how beautiful I am, inside and out, and how he's glad I moved here. We talk all the time, which is pretty crazy to me because I don't keep in constant contact with anyone. Ever.
We went out yesterday and it was so much fun. We went bowling, had lunch, hung out, caught a movie, had dinner and watched another movie. Misa said it was the longest date in history since I met him at noon and didn't get home til just after midnight. :)
He's just really sweet. Some of the things he says or does remind me of my two closest friends and that makes me feel like they're not really that far away from me after all.
I just like hanging out with him. There's no pressure to be something I'm not or pretend I'm not who I am. I don't remember the last time I felt like I could really be myself around someone I don't know all that well.
It's definitely a nice change.
Plus he's really cute. Hehe! He's one exam away from becoming an EMT so it's cool to be dating someone that has the same interest in the medical field as I do. Everything about him is so different from my ex that it catches me by surprise sometimes. I like it. :)
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I'm nervous for this weekend.
I have a date.
With a guy.
LOL.
I haven't been on a date in a really long time and I actually like this guy. LOL. He's easy to talk to and makes me laugh all the time. He's very sweet and tells me all the time that I'm beatiful and gorgeous.
It's been a long time since I've been infatuated with a guy. I feel like a teenager again. :)
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I hate when friends try and tell me that something we've both gone through was worse for them than it was was for me. And I hate even more the insinuation that I welcomed my unfortunate experience or something equally absurd.
Just because we've been through similar unpleasant experiences and I pushed through mine without talking about it much doesn't mean it didn't affect me as much as yours affected you.
Coping with something without letting it ruin my life is completely acceptable behavior, hell, I'm pretty sure it's a favorable thing to most people.
Life can suck, yes. It throws curve balls and the world can feel like its closing in, but that doesn't mean that you have to let it push you over the edge. I've been dealt my fair share of shitty hands and I've played my cards to the best of my ability. I'm not perfect and I've felt like I couldn't possibly come out on top but I have and I've fought my battles as well as I could.
And I even done so without blabbing my big fat mouth about every experience to everyone and anyone who would listen. I don't like being pitied and I sure as hell don't like being stared at like people are waiting for me to crack and never recover.
It is what it is and I've been through what I've been through but don't for an instant think that I've gone out of my way to live the roughest experiences possible.
Shit happens and apparently I just dealt with it differently than you did but it doesn't mean you're the only one who's suffered.
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I'm so thankful for this picture. I'm thankful I got to see him one last time before he moved on to a better place. I'm grateful that I was able to talk to him, laugh with him, hug him and tell him I love him one last time before he left this world for the next.
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